"Please keep your arms inside the vehicle until the ride has come to a complete stop."
Yep. A roller coaster week.
One day, the scale tells me that I've reached my goal weight. woo hoo! Skinny jeans, here I come!
The next day, the washing machine breaks. Too bad I can't wash my skinny jeans!
The next day, three unexpected surprises came to me in the span of a morning. I won a $25 gift certificate to an online stamp store (thank you, WPlus9 design!). Then I went to the mailbox, where I had an envelope and a package. The envelope contained an unexpected check for $50 from a consignment store where I'd dropped some items off last August. woo hoo! The package? A free cookbook from Gooseberry Patch that includes one of my recipes. Excitement!
I was feeling so blessed!
And then the next day, I received an email.
"While we were very impressed with your resume, we've decided to offer the position to another candidate."
Ugh. Not chosen, again.
I was not feeling very blessed.
I have a touch of whiplash from this roller coaster week.
Last year, God gave me this verse in Isaiah. "Fear not, for I have redeemed you. I have summoned you by name; you are mine." I pondered and meditated on the word "redeemed" last year. It was a beautiful word. I learned that if God could redeem me, He could certainly redeem my circumstances. I surrendered to the one who bought me and redeemed me at such a high price. I am His, and He is mine.
This year, I'm pondering the first message in this verse. Fear not. Those words occur so often in the Word. I think it's because fear so often tries to take root in our heads and hearts. Fear holds us back from taking action. Fear prevents us from change. Fear tells us "You got to hold on to it, otherwise it will all be out of control." Fear stops us from the sweet surrender of giving it all to the one who is in control.
I'm not going to lie. I had a pretty good pity party last night. There was wine with my whine. But this morning, the sun rose with the promise of a new day. I am trying hard not to lose heart. I will not be afraid. I'm going to surrender this present circumstance, knowing that it will be redeemed.
It's going to be a good day.